When I was 18 years old, I told my father that I wanted to learn driving. He laughed at me and said “Don’t waste money. We will never be rich enough to buy a car.” At that age, I thought what he said made sense. I started teaching cooking when I was about 26 years old. Students will come to the cooking classes either by car, by taxi or chauffeur driven and of course there were many who came by bus. I was fascinated by the students who got dropped off and then picked up again by their drivers. “They must be filthy rich”, this is what went in my mind each time I see these tai-tais being dropped. And one day, I saw it………the regal JAGUAR at close range and I sat in it. My student Maria had a shiny, elegant, graceful and classy liquid silver Jaguar with a leaping Jaguar in front of the car. She gave me a lift till Thomson Plaza….. By the way her Malay chauffer, Suleiman drove the car. Travelling in that car was like floating, like just gliding without noise. The interior was cool, comfortable and spacious and the seats leather. I could feel people turning their heads in the street to look at the Jaguar with me sitting upright proudly, passing them…..this car really made people stop and pay attention and it invoked a desire in me – to want to own it one day.
That day, I decided that if I ever buy a car, it has to be a Jaguar - even if it had to be a second hand car. That became my goal – to one day, buy a Jaguar and have a driver drive me around. Over the years, I could have learnt driving and got a car for myself but I was afraid of learning – I feared that I might end up driving some other type of car and not enjoy the luxury of having a driver. I am 54 now, have not made enough money to buy a Jaguar or employ a driver……….I think I will be realistic and let go of my goal to want to possess a Jaguar car. I don’t want to have super expectations – I could not achieve my goal in the last 30 years.
Sometimes, I wonder if this goal of mine was realistic. I have taken the steps to write down the pros and cons of owning a Jaguar car plus a driver. I have had millions of night dreams of myself in Jaguar cars in all the colors – emerald fire, botanical green, winter gold, radiance, ebony and salsa. In my dreams sometimes the Jaguars were driven by Richard Gere, John Abraham, Anthony Bourdain, Luciano Pavarotti and even Robert Pattinson not long ago!
I am going to allow myself to mourn defeat and failure for a couple of days. I know the husband, the friends and acquaintances are going to laugh at me for changing my mind after many years but do I care for them? Since they all knew my dream and goal, did anyone ever thought of hiring a Jaguar just for any of my birthdays and drive me around? No. They did not. Did anyone at least steal me a leaping Jaguar from someone else’s car? No they did not….therefore they are not entitled to laugh at me for changing my goal. Sometimes I am in two minds – whether to repeatedly write my affirmations – or repeatedly re-energize my visualizations………after all the leaping Jaguar means speed and power………Perhaps, I should still hang on………and Hope. Perhaps, someone will remember to rent a Jaguar hearse for my funeral so that I will have my last ride – in a Jaguar car and chauffeur driven.
You can afford a Jaguar. If only u had started from a scratch in terms if Dollar Sense on Owning a Jaguar, like how you would buy & Prepare the ingredients to cooking any of your big meals.
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